I’m not so worried this time around either. I think partly because I just don’t have time to be worried when I’m busy trying to keep up with a toddler. And because I know everything worked out fine last time. It’s sort of a mixed blessing. I’m not overly stressed, but I’m also not as prepared as I could be. I’ve been meaning to begin the self-hypnosis training again and just haven’t done it. Part of me feels like if I don’t get to it, it’ll be ok, but it would still be a good idea. And there are some other little things: we don’t exactly have names picked out, we’re still toying with room arrangements, we’ve talked some about our plans for labor and delivery and what to do with Martha at that time, but nothing is set. Currently this is the middle of week 26 so I’m not even into the final trimester quite yet, but there is also a greater chance of preterm labor since Martha was preterm so there may not be as much time as expected despite the weekly hormone injections that are designed to help prevent preterm labor.

And yet, I’m still not overly concerned about any of it. The pregnancy seems to be proceeding along as normally as possible. All the midwife visits have gone well. Measurements are lining up with the estimated due date, ultrasounds look good, heartbeats sound good. I feel pretty good although at this point carrying around extra weight is beginning to become a little bit of a physical drain. I’ll have to go back to taking naps in the afternoon pretty soon.

I do worry about how I’m going to handle having an infant and a toddler. I remember not being very fond of the infant stage. But then again, there were some good things about it. A week or so ago when we were in the hospital with Martha for croup, she curled up on my chest and fell asleep and it reminded me of how she used to do that when she was a baby. I wouldn’t mind doing that part again.

Day 280 of 280

Finish, conclusion, or completion? Conclusion at best.

Every day is a new day, even when that day is 280 days long.

Day 277 of 280

Spent a good deal of yesterday working outside on some projects. Spent most of today at the church.

Day 272 of 280

Lots of projects going on at work.

Day 270 of 280

Church service this morning. I finally watched the new Star Trek movie this evening. It’s really good.

Day 267 of 280

Ridiculous amount of work on some infrastructure projects. Also some programming and other stuff.

Day 263 of 280

Martha woke up at 3:00 this morning, so not a good morning in general. Services today followed by working on the VW and playing with Martha. I was able to get a nap in, too, which was good.

I woke up by saying “Peeperdo is up and the Golden Pavilion is burning.” These are the things that go on in my head.

Day 259 of 280

Doing lots of project planning.

Day 258 of 280

Exaltation of the Cross liturgy this morning followed by work. Finally figured out the Lync stuff after a couple of days. Firewall. Came home and fixed my car, hopefully for good in that the part is much better than the generic one.

Day 257 of 280

Spent all day long working on Lync stuff.

Vigil for the Exaltation of the Cross this evening.