wednesday 8/27

August 27th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 7
BBT: 97.2
exercise: 30 minutes
sitting: 30 minutes (less excruciating than yesterday)
thoughts:

I have a problem to solve at work. Problem solving is an activity that I really like. However once the problem is solved, I seldom want to take the steps necessary to fix whatever it is that needs to be fixed. That part is boring.

Spent the evening in church….tomorrow is the Dormition of the Theotokos which means that after liturgy I can have lunch which involves meat and cheese. Being at work when I break the fast always presents a tough choice. Do I go for the chili dog at Sandy’s or do I go for queso at Moe’s? Regardless of what I have for lunch, we’re going to Hudson’s for bbq and 3 sides for dinner.

it’s raining it’s pouring

August 26th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 6
BBT: 97.2
exercise: skipped but active at the dayjob
sitting: 20 excruciatingly long minutes
thoughts:

Last night and tonight we’ve had very nice rains. Remnants of the former hurricane. Good soaking rain and rumbles of thunder. Perfect sleeping weather. Last night I didn’t really feel all that sleepy when we got into bed, but I closed my eyes and then suddenly I was jolted awake. I’m not sure what happened to wake me up but I had no idea what time it was and I was fairly disoriented. I was just getting ready to sit up to look at the clock on Columba’s side of the bed when Columba said “eight minutes”
I said “huh?”
he said “that’s how long it took you to get to sleep and start snoring”
“I’ve only been in bed for eight minutes?”
“yup”

Neo-Con / Clinton Blowback

August 26th, 2008 by Columba

Dayjob, 13:42 (lf)

Filed under world politics, as this has nothing to do with Orthodoxy as both countries are orthodox and both patriarchs have strongly spoken out against the war (skirmish?) in Georgia.

How anyone could not know that this would happen is beyond me - even Pat Buchanan has written eloquently on the subject.

In recognizing the two territories as independent, Russia was making good on warnings it issued after Western countries recognized the independence of Kosovo, where NATO helped an ethnic Albanian population wrest independence from Serbia. { Including bombings during Easter which many religious figures, including evangelicals, asked the US and NATO to stop during holy week at the very least - these actions are in comparison to the following statement from the same commander-in-chief in charge of the Serbian campaign (Clinton) : “For us to initiate military action during Ramadan would be profoundly offensive to the Muslim world and therefore would damage our relations with Arab countries and the progress we have made in the Middle East. That is something we wanted very much to avoid.” as a reason to quickly attack targets during Desert Fox in order to not “offend” Muslims by blowing them up during a holy period. — blog editor}

Russia has few allies closer than Serbia, and the 78-day American-led bombing campaign in 1999 added to a building sense of Russian humiliation.

As president, Vladimir V. Putin — now the Russian prime minister — tried for years to prevent Kosovo from declaring its independence from Serbia. When the Kosovars went ahead, with strong American and European support, last February, Russia seemed ready to respond in kind.

Mr. Medvedev referred to Kosovo during his statement, saying Russia had previously “displayed calm and patience” in its dealings with Georgia.

“We repeatedly called for returning to the negotiating table and did not deviate from this position of ours even after the unilateral proclamation of Kosovo’s independence,” he said. “However, our persistent proposals to the Georgian side to conclude agreements with Abkhazia and South Ossetia on the non-use of force remained unanswered. Regrettably, they were ignored also by NATO and even at the United Nations.”

Speaking during a trip to the Middle East, Ms. Rice said the move “puts Russia in opposition to the Security Council resolution to which it is a party,” referring to United Nations agreements on Georgia’s territory.

That’s from an article at the New York Times.

a day of work

August 25th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 5
BBT: 97.3
exercise: 35 minutes
sitting: 30 minutes lying down
thoughts:

Woke up with some kinks in my back this morning, so I did a lie down instead of a sitting this morning and then followed up with the heated car seat on the way in. I don’t know how I lived without heated car seats. I’ll never be without them again if I can help it.
Some work done at work. I’m much happier when I am busy. I should try to remember this.
Watched two episodes of Top Gear this evening. This show runs a very close second to Dr Who in my list of favorites.

a day of rest

August 24th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 4
BBT: 97.5
exercise: not on Sunday
sitting: not on Sunday
thoughts:

Sometimes I am very grateful that when I get home from church I can rest for the remainder of the day. Today is one of those days. I am doing the laundry and reading a book and waiting for the Olympics to come on. That’s all. And it’s good.

enough

August 23rd, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 3
BBT: 97.8 (whatever)
exercise: not on Saturdays
sitting: not on Saturdays
thoughts:

Finally got home last night around 10pm after a bunch of ridiculousness with moving the brother’s furniture. Not that the movers were a problem or that the lady at the storage place was a problem, just that the whole situation was ridiculous. Lots of small complicated things. 1) I didn’t have a key so we had to call the lock cutter guy 2) the moving van was a semi so it couldn’t get near the storage unit and it parked across the street somewhere3) we had to rent a little truck to get things across the street to the big truck 4) it was raining 5) we barely made it to the storage place before close of business at 6pm 6) the manager was on vacation 7) the lady who was on duty went to run an errand just as we were ready to take the little truck to the big truck 8) I didn’t have a pass code to the storage place so we couldn’t get out 9) it was 8:30 and the gates lock themselves at 9pm 10) my brother didn’t have a pass code either 11) we weren’t sure if the lady was going to come back 12) if she didn’t come back my car and the little truck were locked inside the storage area 13) even if we got out, we couldn’t get back in and there was still a mattress and box springs in the storage unit 14) the moving guys had to be in Southport by morning 15) my brother’s stuff couldn’t go back into the storage unit because we’d cut the lock and 16) the elevator stopped working 17) did I mention it was dark and raining?
It all did work out because the lady eventually came back from her errand and apologized because she’d forgotten that we couldn’t get out. But the whole episode was silly. And by 10pm on Friday I’d reached my threshold for the weekend, so I called my sister and backed out of the camping trip she arranged for the weekend, got some good greasy McDonalds’ comfort food, went home, had my special lambic beer, watched some tv, went to bed, slept so soundly and snored so much that Columba gave up and slept downstairs.

Today I slept in, then went out and rid the garden of weeds. Had lunch, watched some more tv and read a book during the Olympic events I wasn’t interested in (table tennis, volleyball) and during the commercials. The agenda for the evening is also quiet. Going to church, stopping by the store to pick up a few things, making food for church tomorrow, going to bed early.

waiting

August 22nd, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 2
BBT: 97.3
exercise: 30 minutes with an umbrella
sitting: 30 minutes with a heating pad
thoughts:

Got up early this morning and left early so as to collect $40 and be at my brother’s storage unit by 8am in case the movers scheduled for 8am to 10am were also there. They weren’t. And won’t be there for another hour or so. They are driving from Florida.
I am a good big sister.

forgot

August 21st, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 30/1
BBT: 97.3
exercise: no
sitting: 30 mintues
thoughts:

Skipped exercising this morning. I had built it into my work schedule….our department truck needs to have the air conditioner fixed so I was going to take the truck and then walk back up the hill to the office….but then somebody needed the truck so they dropped it off instead.
I spent the morning helping S make “bricks” for the show. This involved cutting homosote with various saws and a machete. It is the kind of semi-monotonous task that I like. Enough that you have to pay attention to your task, but not so consuming that you can’t think or listen to music or converse with the other people in the shop. I would probably be a great assembly line worker.
Once at home I made dinner and watched some Olympics and then went to bed. I completely forgot about posting.

Wednesday 8/20

August 20th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 29
BBT: 97.9 (??!)
exercise: 30 minutes
sitting: 30 twitchy minutes
thoughts:

Today was a better day. I slept in a little but was still the first one in to work. Took a walk which I haven’t done in far too long. That felt really nice. I need to keep up with this habit. It makes a big difference.
Some other miscellaneous work done including getting some of my staff lined up for the semester and purchasing some supplies.
Home by way of the Japanese fast food hibachi place. It’s not as good as the one in Rock Hill was, but it’s better than more fried stuff and easier than getting the kitchen messy.
Some Olympics, and now bed.

Transfiguration

August 19th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day:28
BBT: 97.5
exercise: none
sitting: replaced by pre-communion prayers
thoughts:

Went to church this morning for the Feast of the Transfiguration. Always good to begin the day in church.

RF says that “cynicism is the death of the artist.” Well then. I am a dead artist.

Some other rambling thoughts… I feel stuck. Frustrated. I’d like to change and begin moving, but I’m not sure a) how or b) where to go. Nothing interests me. That’s not quite true. Lots of things interest me, but I am not motivated to action. I am depressed. But I know it. And I can feel that transformation is coming. Very slowly. From way far off. If I am a rock in the middle of a Zen garden, then the gardener is considering what to do before he picks up the rake and changes the pattern. I just have to be patient and trust that a) it will happen and b) that when it happens it will be good. And I have to try not to confuse patience and apathy.

holes

August 18th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 27
BBT: 97.3
exercise: 30 minutes
sitting: 30 minutes w/ heating pad
thoughts:

The faculty were in a retreat for most of the day today. I’m staff so I didn’t get to go, but I was filled in on the “big concept”. I’m not crazy about it, and unfortunately I can’t discuss it much here since it’s not for public knowledge yet. But in general…. on the surface it seems like a good idea. It would fill some holes that the department lacks. However, I really don’t think this is the way to go about filling those holes. Also I’m not sure those are the holes that need filling.
I need to consider this some more.

Sunday 8-17

August 17th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 26
BBT: 97.9 (at least I’m very consistent once my temperature finally does rise)
exercise: not on Sundays
sitting: not on Sundays
thoughts:

Church this morning, and then another fairly quiet day around the house. Napping. Olympics watching. Laundry. Ironing. Good stuff.
Back to work tomorrow, and it is likely to be my last quiet day for awhile. Grad students should appear back in the shops, but the faculty is in meetings all day, so I’ll be left to my own devices, which suits me just fine.

still amazing

August 16th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 25
BBT: 97.9
exercise: does watching the Olympics count?
sitting: on the couch with the heating pad
thoughts:

Spent a very quiet day around the house. Watched a lot of Olympics, and read my book during the sports I wasn’t interested in…Water polo isn’t much fun to watch. It just looks like a lot of splashing. Also, I don’t really care about volleyball.
The human body continues to amaze me. Especially that really tall Jamaican sprinter. He makes running the 100m in under 10 seconds look like a jog in the park. I’m not going to stay up to watch the finals live, but I’ll bet you any amount of money that he takes the gold.
As further proof that Romanians are crazy, look at the 38 year old Romanian woman who won the marathon. She pulled out way ahead of everybody, ran a pretty quick race, and after she won the gold, she just kept on taking victory laps. She must’ve done at least an extra mile or two past the 26.2 of the marathon. Crazy Romanians. :-)

amazing

August 15th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 24
BBT: 97.9
exercise: none
sitting: 30 minutes with heating pad
thoughts:

Some time in the middle of the day I noticed what calendar day it was….August 15 was my due date. No emotion with the noticing, just an acknowledgment.
Went to acupuncture this morning and was treated for the low back pain that has been lurking all week. Dr H says low back pain is definitely related to fertility. Acupuncture is amazing. I always feel so much better after that 20 minutes of needling. Today we did face down with needles along my spine and a nice very warm heat lamp.
Lunch with friend N who found me via Facebook. We have known each other literally almost all our lives. We were best friends from about age 4 to age 12 when my family moved across town and I had to switch schools. Turns out she lives in Columbia now. Nice to get in touch again. I can’t say we have a whole lot in common, but we did have a really nice lunch and we’ll definitely do it again.
Home by way of the grocery store and an evening of watching the Olympics. The track and field events, which are my favorites, begin this weekend. The human body is truly amazing.

and another

August 15th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 23
BBT: 97.9
exercise: 30 mintues
sitting: 30 minutes with heating pad
thoughts:

And another opportunity….the Friends of the Library Liaison position has been reposted so I’ll reapply for that. This job search thing isn’t easy.

another door

August 13th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 22
BBT: 97.9
exercise: none, it was raining, but I did go up and down stairs a lot today
sitting: 30 minutes with heating pad
thoughts:

Looked availability of jobs at local schools last night. There weren’t any. So scratch that idea. However, I did find a job I’d be really interested in at the university. It’s grant seeking/ writing for the university arts institute. Sounds like something that would be perfect for me. The only drawback is that it’s a temporary 1 year appointment with no benefits. It’s also part-time, 20 hours a week, but that part seems like an asset to me. I can do a whole lot of things around here if I’m only working 20 hours a week. So another application into the ether and I wait some more for something to happen.

testing the waters

August 12th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 21
BBT: 97.9 (ahha! finally!)
exercise: none
sitting: 30 minutes with heating pad
thoughts:

Good conversation in the car with Columba on the way home re: what am I looking for in a job and who might hire me. We thought a good strategy might be for me to work this next year as a teacher’s assistant to see if I like it and if I might go on to teaching in the public school system since I’m not going to be teaching at the university level. I’m pretty desperate for a change and this seems like a pretty good option.

ouch

August 11th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 20
BBT: 97.3 (for those of you playing along at home you’ll have noticed that’s 20 days without the temperature rise that normally occurs at ovulation. who knows what this means? I sure don’t.)
exercise: none
sitting: 20 mintues with heating pad on back, 20 minutes with heating pad on front
thoughts:

Somehow over the weekend I have done something to my back. The is a pinch on my left side right about where the hip joins the spine. It feels like I need to pop my back, and it makes bending over or twisting to the left painful. Standing, sitting, and lying down are generally ok, but I can’t bend or twist much at all. So I’ve been using my best Alexander Technique to sit, lie down, and to reach low cabinets. If I don’t do it right, I feel it.
Despite saying “ouch” several times today I’ve gotten a lot done. I completed putting away the laundry. I did the ironing and put it away. I baked prosphora.

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make that my right side. maybe the problem is that I don’t know my left from my right and so the right side is trying to go someplace it shouldn’t.

also, Columba made a very good improvised dinner. He’s much better at that than I am.

mentals hangover

August 10th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 19
BBT: 97.3
exercise: not on sunday
sitting: not on sunday
thoughts:

I must still have a little bit of the mentals because I was highly upset this afternoon when we stopped at the Rush’s on the way home from church and ordered cheeseburger baskets and we only got cheeseburgers with no fries. I was really looking forward to the fries. Also I had a lot of nervous energy before N’s baby shower when intellectually I knew there was nothing at all to worry about because a) this is an easy group of people to please and b) I had everything well under control. Some days are like this.
The shower was very nice. Everybody said so.

cleaning

August 9th, 2008 by Danielle

cycle day: 18
BBT: 97.5
exercise: cleaning the house!
sitting: not on saturdays, but a few lie-downs were had in between cleaning
thoughts:

Spent the whole day cleaning the house and preparing for N’s baby shower which will take place here tomorrow. I don’t particularly mind housework, and I love it when the house is all cleaned and organized. But that is very rare around here. Generally it only happens if there is company coming. Not that it’s a huge mess the rest of the time, but it’s the last thing I want to do when I get home from work, so it doesn’t get done very often.
I particularly avoid vacuuming. The vacuum is heavy, awkward, and noisy. We have a bagless which I empty outside, but it still always feels like I’m getting so much dust on me that I might as well not have vacuumed to begin with. Today I discovered a way to cut down on the number of places I need to use the vacuum. We have several Turkish rugs at our house and since they’re not really supposed to be vacuumed anyway I thought I’d take the smaller ones outside and beat them. That worked really well. And then I thought maybe I can just sweep the really big Turkish rug in the living room, and sure enough that worked really well too. I actually like sweeping since the light, quiet broom is the antithesis of the vacuum. Plus sweeping and beating rugs is pretty good exercise. Maybe our house will stay cleaner now that the vacuum isn’t involved.